Saturday 14 November 2015


Today I got up, went for a run and then got us all ready to go out. We went to see my Nan and brother, where we had Cbeebies on the television while the boys rode my brothers back and got him to do whatever they wanted him to do.

I chatted to my Nan, drank tea as well as checking Facebook and Twitter. As I scrolled through Facebook I saw the profile pictures changed to red, white and blue. I saw people's statuses of love to all those families and friends of those tragically killed. I then scrolled through Twitter and saw people expressing this anger and sadness, as well as a few arguing with each other about their difference of opinions of the events that unfolded in Paris last night.

This all while not knowing what had exactly happened apart from my husband telling me a few snippets and briefly seeing the start of news articles on social media.

Not because I didn't care or that I don't want to know but because I was scared of what I would read, how it would make me feel and I wanted to shield myself, like I do my children everyday. I know I'm not a child but the horror of what this world is coming to scares me because this is a world I am bringing my children up in.

A world that is currently full of hatred. A world full of actual human beings with families of their own hurting other human beings and through their actions breaking the hearts of so many others.

I then went and read a news article on what has happened and it made me sad and angry and made me wish I hadn't.

It breaks my heart to hear and to read of such hatred. I'm not being selfish for not wanting to know, I'm being ignorant to what kind of world we live in and the kind of world we may be in when my children are older.

My thoughts and prayers are with everyone affected in anyway.

Running in Lavender


  1. Totally heartbroken by it all. It's terrifying to know that we live in a world where this can happen. My thoughts are with the families and loved ones at this terrible time. X

  2. It is just horrific....I was watching the news last night and all day today I have felt so sad for those who lost their lives....
    I think you have the right idea about not wanting to know.

  3. It is so sad, I posted last night on my blog too. Today I have again seen so much on social media, and my heart breaks for those in Paris and for those in all the other countries we don't hear about who suffer everyday. I have already seen posts where innocent muslims have been beaten and cut with broken bottles. Why do people not see that hatred is what these terrorists want us to feel. I remember when 9/11 occurred and I wondered should we try for a baby, should I bring new life into a world full of evil? But the truth is there is so much good in this world and this is what your children will see. If we raise them to see the good, to come together and help people, to love each other and their world then I know all our children will be fine. It is scary, it is so, so scary, I know as a mum it terrifies me too. But let's unite and let's send peaceful messages, and love one another. Great post lovely, I hope you feel better xx

  4. I can't believe it either - just awful. Not watched much on the news but have read bits. I just can't believe there are people who think a "god" would condone this horrendous behaviour??? xx #sundaystars

  5. Beautifully written. I felt the same fear of what i was about to read. Just awful. #justanotherlinky xx

  6. I am with you on this one. I always aim to be as honest as possible with my kids about what is going on in the world, but this time I have found it really hard to stick to that. #justanotherlinky

  7. Yes, I feel exactly the same, I'm relieved to know it's not an unnaturall reaction to want to turn away from tragedy in order to protect ourselves from the overwhelming sadness of it all. #SundayStars

  8. I know how you feel I find it all so scary I think for me it's because these people just don't care who they hurt or effect it is so sad, Thanks for linking up to #sundaystars x

  9. I totally get this - I have been the same, preferring to hear it from my partner than read it for myself because I feel sick to my stomach when stuff like this happens - worrying about what is to come next. Thanks for linking up to #coolmumclub lovely x

  10. I totally get this lovely. Its a very nasty horrible world isn't it

  11. I understand you pretty well. This has been horrible news and I has been feelling sad for a while! We just don't want to see these things anymore we just don't want this type of world for our children to live. I really fear for what the future will bring to us. I hope things get better!! Thanks for hosting #justanotherlinky, :-) x



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