Today I got up, went for a run and then got us all ready to go out. We went to see my Nan and brother, where we had Cbeebies on the television while the boys rode my brothers back and got him to do whatever they wanted him to do.
I chatted to my Nan, drank tea as well as checking Facebook and Twitter. As I scrolled through Facebook I saw the profile pictures changed to red, white and blue. I saw people's statuses of love to all those families and friends of those tragically killed. I then scrolled through Twitter and saw people expressing this anger and sadness, as well as a few arguing with each other about their difference of opinions of the events that unfolded in Paris last night.
This all while not knowing what had exactly happened apart from my husband telling me a few snippets and briefly seeing the start of news articles on social media.
Not because I didn't care or that I don't want to know but because I was scared of what I would read, how it would make me feel and I wanted to shield myself, like I do my children everyday. I know I'm not a child but the horror of what this world is coming to scares me because this is a world I am bringing my children up in.
A world that is currently full of hatred. A world full of actual human beings with families of their own hurting other human beings and through their actions breaking the hearts of so many others.
I then went and read a news article on what has happened and it made me sad and angry and made me wish I hadn't.
It breaks my heart to hear and to read of such hatred. I'm not being selfish for not wanting to know, I'm being ignorant to what kind of world we live in and the kind of world we may be in when my children are older.
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone affected in anyway.
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone affected in anyway.















