Today You Turn 4

Four years ago today at 6.14am I was handed the most beautiful baby boy and our lives were to change forever. That day was the day we became parents and that is the day our lives were filled with love we never knew existed.

I didn't know what to do, I was scared as I now had this tiny little human that relied on me and my husband to feed him, love him and build him a life he deserved.

This tiny little human that I couldn't believe was ours was Finley. He had been named for a lot of my pregnancy but still in labour I wasn't too sure if that was to be his name but as soon as I saw him I knew, he was a Finley. He was going to be cheeky and mischievous with a big bag of love thrown in. We chose his middle name as soon as we found out we were having a boy and that was to be my late gramps name, Arthur. Now he would have loved Finley so much and they would have got up to all sorts together in his garden.

Here is a little letter to the birthday boy.

To Finley,

Happy Birthday baby boy.

From the moment you were placed in my arms I knew we were going to have an adventure.

Now you cried, and I mean cried a lot. Daddy and I found it hard but the love we felt for you and for each other got us through. Your smile made all the sleepless nights, like actual sleepless nights, worth it and your big kisses made the day better.

I can't quite believe you are 4. You have done so much in 4 years, you have learnt to crawl, walk, talk and you have become the most beautiful little boy. Yes you are strong willed and hard work at times but I wouldn't change you or our journey for the world.

Your smile brightens up a room and your cheeky laugh is just infectious. You make me laugh and cry on a daily basis but that is parenting for you. You have filled everyday with such happiness by just being in it.

I look forward to what the next year holds for us. We are moving and then you start school, and I can tell you now I will be a blubbering mess watching you disappear through the classroom doors.

Your my first born and you have made me the parent I am today. I hope I have done you proud.

I love you with every bone in my body Finley - thank you for showing me what life is all about, family and love.

Love from Mummy xx