Sometimes life takes over. There's housework that needs doing, work to do, errands to run.
But today I stopped.
Because I looked at the boys as they slept last night and realised they won't be little for long. Soon Monday to Friday will be a school day and we won't be able to drop everything and go and have fun. And the world will not stop turning if left the ironing for one day or if we ran out of jam as we didn't go to the supermarket.
Finley had preschool today so it was just me and Noah. Finley has such fun at preschool but poor Noah just gets carted around doing errands that are so much easier with just the one child handing off my arm.
The sun was shining so we headed to the park after dropping Finley off. We got there about 9.30 and it was us along with another mum and her son. I've got to say one of the most perfect times for the park.
We ran and played & laughed and smiled! The most simplest things in life that are free and bring the most joy. He laughed that laugh on the swings where it was a belly laugh. And that sound has to be the best sound in the world.
They won't remember the times I was sat at my computer while they played cars. Or the time we all sat and watched Mr Tumble because I was so exhausted and just needed to sit down. They wont remember how tidy the house was or the homemade lasagne that took me hours to make as they are 1 &3! And I want them to remember their childhood, a childhood full of laughter and fun.
I am guilty of letting jobs gets in the way and sometimes this makes me feel like a bad mum. And I know we can't everyday go out and do something extra exciting but sometimes we, I definitely do and I'm admitting it, need to stop and take in their laugh, their smell and just look at them. And by admitting it I hope you all don't think I am a bad mum as I really do try my best to be the best mum that I can be to my boys. And sometimes that is the reason why I don't stop, I want them to live in a tidy house and have the best things by me working.
I am so lucky to have two happy and healthy boys and I need to enjoy them more. I'm not saying I neglect them or that they don't get my time, they just don't get all the possible time I could give them. I know there's things that need to be done but I need to sit on the floor more to play, go to the park more even if it's just for half an hour and just listen to them laugh. Because before I know it I will have all the time in the world and my days will be silent while they are at school and I will miss them.
And this saying is so true but its so hard to forget and get carried away on the rollercoaster that is parent and provider.
I cherish my children and every moment I spend with them but I need to take more time to do things for them.
And on Friday when Finley is home I will take them both out in the morning, just us three to our local Arboretum and spend some quality time with them. As they deserve to have my full attention away from Mr Tumble, work and dare I say it social media. But my phone will be joining us for the million and one photos I will be taking.