It's only a pushchair I keep telling myself. It's an item and not a person. And I really should not have such strong feelings about selling it, but I do!!
I always wanted an iCandy. They looked so shiny and beautiful (haha I can hear you laughing at me already). But so so expensive. I didn't even contemplate one when I was pregnant with Finley. I chose a Quinny Buzz and loved it! The only reason I had to change pushchairs was that I needed a double.
I started with a second hand Phil & ted but it wasn't for me. Finley would have hated sitting at the bottom as I wanted a pushchair that I could put the car seat on with ease and not waking the baby (now Noah). Then I swapped it for an iCandy pear but this again wasn't for me. Finley was too tall for it and I just didn't really like it, even if it was an iCandy. I searched and searched and finally found it. My iCandy peach blossom in tomato. It was on eBay, I won it and I was so incredibly excited.
Since the day it arrived it has transformed my life with the two kidlets. It worked with a toddler and tiny baby, then toddler and growing baby and finally toddler and pre schooler. I haven't used it as a double for the boys for a long time now but it's can be a double if I ever needed it to be. I walk lots and as the boys grow, it's getting heavier. Normally Noah is in the pushchair while Finley is on the buggy board. Its getting harder to steer with one hand while holding Finley's when he is walking. And with Noah nearly 2 we need something smaller, lighter and just easier as life moves on and the boys grow up.
With the weather starting to get a bit better we are having days out where Finley likes to use the bike and the only way for it to fit in the car along with a pushchair is if we get a buggy and sell my iCandy.
But this makes me feel anxious and I feel so stupid because if it. I've chosen the buggy I would like to replace it, a Maclaren Techno XT, and I have taken pictures of the iCandy ready to sell. I just haven't committed fully to hitting the sell button.
It will mean Noah is no longer a baby. Which I know he isn't but I seem to be holding onto that last piece of baby unable to let go.
But I need to as it's just a pushchair!
But I love it! And I love everything it represents and every memory we have had with it. It carried around my two children for nearly two years. It has done hundreds of miles with us and it reminds me of them as baby's.
I need to embrace the fact I have two toddlers that both want to walk and that the only reason for a pushchair in my life is to get us to pre school and to get errands done faster when I need to.
Snap out of it women it's only a pushchair!!