So for weeks and weeks now I have been playing with the idea of going to BritMumsLive. I saw all the posts and photos of last year before I started blogging and it looked like such fun. And then when I started blogging I thought this would be a great place to meet other bloggers and to also learn about blogging. I knew nothing about blogging before I started and now I don't know that much so anything new will be exciting.
Then last week I did it. I booked my ticket and then quickly followed by booking my hotel.
I can't back out now.
I am now petrified. Of getting on the train on my own, of making my way through London on my own and meeting new people. This is something I have never done before. I have always done things with a partner. I wanted to go travelling so me and my now husband went travelling together. I would never have done that on my own. If I have ever gone to London I have gone with my hubby, Mum or friend. I am such a shy person when you first meet me but when I come out of my shell you would never have known I was that shy. And I really need to work on the shyness and push through. I am getting better at covering up the shyness but I find myself stumbling on my words and then feeling stupid.
Since having the boys I have gained a lot more confidence and I will do things on my own. Before having the boys I would never have dreamt about going shopping on my own or going into a café on my own. But I do with the boys. Granted I'm not on my own but I'm not with an adult to hold my hand and to help control my crazy children lol.
My husband is the one that told me to just book them. He knows how much blogging has become part of me and I really do love him so much for that. And also I think I may have been driving him crazy with the should I, shouldn't I go. The other thing that pushed me to book was seeing lots of other fantastic bloggers booking their tickets. I wanted to be there too and I knew if I didn't go, I would see the pictures and then kick myself for now going.
I booked a hotel which is a short walk from the conference centre. As even though I am being brave and going by myself I just don't fancy the tube on my own on a Friday evening.
The more and more I think about it the more excited I am getting about it. I see on Twitter people who are going and I instantly jump up and tell them so am I! The blogging community has been amazing and I hope it is in real life. I know it will be but I just worry in case people don't like me! Stupid I know!
So on the 19th June I will be jumping on a train on my own, totally petrified but so excited to meet so many lovely people and to really feel like I belong in this amazing blogging community.
Hi! This is me :-)