In just under 3 weeks my 2 year old is going to be going to preschool. Granted its for only 3 hours a week but its still a big step. Am I doing the right thing? I really don't know.
Before Finley's old preschool closed I was all for Noah going in September for half a day. I felt comfortable with the setting and I knew the teachers and parents. Finley has only been at his new preschool for 3 months, he's settled but in all honesty, I'm not.
It's nothing to do with the running of the preschool or their ability to look after children. The teachers are lovely, Finley loves it but I am not sure if its the right place for Noah. Finley has been to 3 nursery/preschools now so is used to change and takes change well.
I didn't go back to work after having Noah so became a stay at home Mum. More recently I have become a work at home mum but I have always been home and Noah has always been with me. He has had nights away with grandparents and when we went to South Africa I was away for 5 days which is the longest I have ever been away from both my babies.
Noah has never been to nursery and with him being the second we rarely go to stay and play sessions due to other commitments and the boys ages not quite fitting in with the requirements. He does have a lot of interaction with other children, his age and both older and younger but I am always there.
He can be very nervous, very different to Finley. Finley has always been to nursery from the age of 9 months when I went back to work. So he is used to it. And when he started we had a few tears due to it being a different place but he soon settled and couldn't wait to go in.
I keep asking myself am I doing the right thing. I have geared myself up for the tears and am really hoping this doesn't happen. He may surprise me and go in as happy as anything because he will have his brother by his side. I really am hoping.
When he stays with friends he is used to or family members he doesn't cry or kick up a fuss. But it will be all new. And it will break my heart. I think it will break my heart even if he doesn't cry because it will be 3 hours that someone else is looking after him when I don't have a reason for them to. I will walk home and be alone for 3 hours!!
I have said I can go into the office for this time on a Friday but not for the first few weeks. We need to adjust to this new routine. I think its more me that needs to adjust as I know once we are in the swing of things he will love it.
I just wish I was more familiar with the preschool. Finley is very resilient but with Noah being the youngest I think he has been guarded. And with him being maybe my last baby this 3 hours a week preschool is huge!!
When did my babies grow up to be pre-schoolers?!